I hate vacation (136)-

Well...I just weighed my self. 136 fucking pounds. I hate it. I feel like I need my tuba music right behind me. I can admit, it was scary going to the scale. I had to look at my self in the mirror. You girls want to know how I see my self in the mirror? Well here it goes:

1. A fat million pound girl
2. Worthless piece of trash
3. Ugly as shit
4. Needs a full body reconstruction
5. And surprised my disgusting looks aren't cracking the mirrors.

Well there you have it. I hate my self. I hate my looks. I hate who I am. Anyways I don't know why, but my weight made me less motivated to loose all the weight for the 3rd fucking time. Blahh. I really need your support girlies. At least there are no more vacations until summer! But ew, I have track so I can't really be fasting to much (I don't want to faint at a meet...everyone would then get that I am a wanarexic). Well I say wanarexic because I don't feel like an anorexic, but w.e. you get me.  Well It's 3 AM here, so I am going to go to bed girlies. Love ya lots!

Xoxo,
Alexii

P.S. Feel free to ask me about my vacation :)