Eeeek!!!

 Okay....so here's the basic events: I went on vacation when I was at my semi lowest weight of 126 pounds....and after vacations IK that I always gain 10-12 pounds. But this time is different. This time I'm actually kind of scared to weigh my self. I mean I say I can get up and go weigh my self right now at this very moment, but I just can't bring my self to do it....so I posted this question on yahoo answers hoping that someone could support me on getting on the scale. And below that are a few of the responses I received :'(

"I'm scared to weigh my self...?"

"Hey, So I've been anorexic and bulimic for a little over 6 months now. I keep on doing it and then backing off because vacations make me gain 10-12 pounds. I got so good (down to 126) right before vacation right after a previous vacation....but now I think I am back to the beginning...But I am to scared to weigh my self. I know you guys won't understand the ED, but can you guys please encourage me to weigh my self? I've never been scared to weigh my self before =/"

"do it baby"

"126 my fat aunt randy weighs ten pounds over that u SHULD be scared of stepping on the scale cuz...ya ur probably gonna have to buy a new one"

"I'm scared too.. i know what you're going through. to be honest I wouldnt do it because if it's more you'll feel bad about yourself"

"Is this a joke? Seriously get over yourself! There are serious problems out there in this world. I have no sympthy for someone who creates their own illness. Hunny your brain is sick go get help. There are poor people in this world with AIDS or Cancer who have real problems and didn't ask for it."

Okay now to talk about some of the things I received. Well obviously, it didn't turn out the way I hoped. The do it baby was inspiring then I read the next comment (the one in yellow) and I was deeply shocked. Who ever that person is, he knew how fat I am. He didn't even have to see me to know that. I even managed to puke up a little bit from my dinner from 7 hours ago (my body does it when ever it pleases, I weirdly cannot control my puking), and I think it puked up a little blood....I've never done that before. But it was only a tiny bit of puke....but still. Well, now I can't even look in the mirror and I'm even more terrified to go weight my self.  And the person in red...I didn't ask for this. How about you try looking in the mirror everyday. You try being a fucking 'normal' person. How about you go shopping and you can barely stand in public without screaming or running into a corner because your afraid that people are judging how fat you are. And do I see you helping out all those people? No. So FUCK OFF. NOW. Well that ruined my night...thanx. 

Anyways, i know that I need to weigh my self to get back on track but I am to scared to....please help. Thank you girls for reading my posts...it means a world of a difference to me <3

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